I can honestly say that I have been through a lot of phases in my life thus far. A lot of trails and tribulations. Many many self doubting moments. There’s been times where I would want something so bad and literally allowed all of the “negative possibilities” or the “What if’s?” dwell so heavy that I literally talked myself out of doing it. My motivation turned into fear fast! Honestly! Example you ask? I have plenty, but I’ll just give you a couple.
I love airplanes! I love everything about them, the designs, the engines, the idea of flight in how every part of the aircraft has it’s own specific duties and if one fails the entire aircraft could potentially fail. Wait! Seriously?! So if one screw is loose, this one small screw could potentially cause a minor problem that could escalate into a much bigger problem in a matter of seconds. That alone frightened me so much that the negative thoughts and fearing questions instantly came to my mind. I started school to learn mostly about the engines. I wanted to know how their were built, how they operated, how and who came up with the designs of the engines. I don’t like flying let’s make that clear! However I do love engines and everything about them so I wanted to become a Aircraft Mechanic. Not long after starting school I dropped out because I allowed self doubt to overcome my thoughts. I allowed fear to fill my emotions. I let the thought of failing pull me away from something that I wanted so bad. At least that’s what I thought.
Not long after that I wanted to move to relocate to another state. I wanted to move to Florida. I made a plan, even applied for a ton of jobs. I did not have any family there at the time which frightened me on the aspect of being lonely. Then I started doubting myself because of my age, that I was too young and I should wait until I’m older to take such a big step like this. I also allowed other people’s opinions affect my thoughts and plans as well. Which was one of the biggest problems I’ve had to teach myself to overcome. Not allowing others peoples opinions influence those of my own.
My point in saying all of this is simple. Don’t let self doubt influence your life. Inhale confidence…. Exhale doubt. Make this a part of your routine everyday. When you find yourself having a challenging day.. Exhale the doubt of the stress or how you’re going to make it through the day,, and inhale the confidence knowing that you will overcome all challenges, that you will make it through the day with a smile while doing it. Let me tell you I am a work in progress but I do not allow doubt to drive me of coarse of what i want to accomplish in life. I take the good with the bad. I am currently working on obtaining my Bachelors degree and let me be the first to tell you I totally wish I would have went to school straight out of high school, but life got the best if me. No worries it’s definitely still within arms reach and trust me I’m reaching!! It’s been a lot of different things to throw me off my path, but I am pushing through all of it. I thank God every day for allowing me to continue working towards my goals and as long as I have breath in my body I WILL NOT stop until I obtain that degree. If you are reading this and are having any doubts about anything in life right now at this moment, please Inhale Confidence and Exhale doubt and know that all things are possible. You got this 🙂