As we come closer to the end of 2018…. I want to reflect on one of the most challenging obstacles I’ve faced this year alone. My year had a very overwhelming start. I found out I was expecting!! Yes I was having a baby! For me this was very very exciting news to hear being as though I’ve always had complications conceiving while also having had complications carrying a child throughout full term pregnancy. Well, we made it to almost 10 weeks this time. My faith was tested and I had a lot of questions. A lot of confusion. Wondering why me? What is so wrong with my body that I can’t carry a child through full term pregnancy. I miscarried Feb 10, 2018. At least that’s when I went to the doctor for them to tell me the baby did not have a heart beat. Took me a while to accept this one… yeah there were a few in the past but this one… this one I thought was it!! After months of rehabilitation and self encouragement.. I manage to keep going. I mean when life gets tough we have to push through right?
This was the ultimate test for me yet again but this time I knew that God had a plan for me. I had questions, I had doubts but his wasn’t a time for me to loose faith! This was the only thing that I had left to hold on to. Faith is what kept me going. That’s when I decided to trust. Trust in God… Trust in His Plan.. Trust in myself ….I Trust The Next Chapter…because I know the author…
I knew that I control my story. I stroke the pen with each day that goes by. We all are the authors of our story and although things don’t always go as planned we still have gonwoth the flow. We all are human and none of us are perfect. What I do know is we are capable of turning those down periods into the highest and 2019 is in sight. We got this. 2019 will be the year of new beginnings, new success, new blessings. It’s never to late to start fresh. Change the ink if needed but never change the story because that… that is what makes your story yours. I can’t wait to see what the next chapter is all about.
– A.Michelle ❤️